Christmas Memories

All Children Need Happy Christmas Memories

Memories are a special house
We build inside ourselves
Where love and laughter linger,
Where all our past life dwells.

On holidays like Christmas
We can draw upon the store,
Reliving happy times
And feeling all that warmth once more.

Wherever we may travel,
This house is always there
To help to blend the old and new,
To build on ... grow ... and share.

This house can never get too full,
Just grow from floor to floor,
Because the joy of memories
Is always making more.

Among my cherished memories upon which I draw each year as I look back on Christmas with a mixture of  melancholy and humour are those magical christmases when life was so simple and yet so all encompassing  for a little girl who lived for the moment, and those wonderful Christmases spent at my grandparents' farm.

At this time of year 'family', and what it represents is  truly brought home to me more than at any other time of the year. The realization of  just how much this modern busy world we live in today has cost in family values, closeness, and the sheer joy of being together, brings with it a regret which is extremely difficult to express in mere words.

I recall as if it were yesterday the excitement, not of waiting for Santa, nor opening gifts in the morning, but of rushing to get ready to go to the farm and  to be sure nothing was forgotten in our haste to be on our way as we looked forward to the adventure ahead. We had to be on time or we  would cause everyone else to be forced to wait for us. Perhaps they would leave without us!

You see, we could only get so far by car. Once we arrived in the small village and were leaving the main highway for the narrow concession road leading down to the farm, the car became  totally useless as a means of transport. In those days we really got snow and plenty of it! That was the best part of the entire trip,  parking the car in the church yard as we gathered there, family by family, to await the arrival of all the aunts and uncles and cousins, and the most important arrival of all - Grandpa with the sleigh laden  with blankets and the  team of horses festooned with all the bells with which he had decorated their harness and reins - this was the  beginning of  Christmas Day  for us. Even the adults seemed happier, freer, and yes, even younger as we all climbed aboard that sleigh

That four mile trip was so much fun! I am certain memory has even enhanced the pleasure and conveniently made the cold seem insignificant in hindsight. But nothing matches looking back and remembering adults and children alike singing carols  with such joyful abandon as the horses' bells provided accompaniment. The laughter and family closeness warms me still. 
Old Fashioned Family Christmas
Perhaps the adults were happy to see the farm as we approached the laneway but we kids could have ridden quite happily for hours more. We had waited for this all year!

Ahead of us was the absolutely best meal of the year - one which had taken days to prepare and one which so many family members would happily share. The adults at one long table, the kids at another. Christmas dinner has never tasted quite like that since those days. Nor has the company ever been better.

And after dinner came the concert. Grandma, who was bedridden most of the year, would join us all in the front parlour as we kids  provided the after dinner entertainment for the adults. Each in turn must offer their performance and hope that they were no worse than those who had preceded them.  Some of us were really not very musical  when not part of the family choir! But no one dare laugh as their turn was coming! And in any case, it was family and it would be okay even if we were off key.  Grandpa always made us feel we were stars of the first magnitude. His appreciation (always so important)  was the best Christmas gift of all.

I'm sure by the end of the evening the adults were quite happy to see the day coming to a close but  there was still the ride back to the village  upon which we kids could hardly wait to embark. Somehow the adults' enthusiasm didn't quite match that of the trip earlier in the day but we more than made up for that as we tried to show Grandpa how much we were loving it, and  him most of all.We knew he had to make the trip back to the farm alone and we wanted to be sure he would remember the fun all the way home when he would have only the horses and their bells to keep him company.

Upon arrival in the village  we said our goodbyes and each family went to their respective vehicle and snuggled in for the ride home. After all that cold crisp air from the ride, as well as all the excitement of the day and evening, we were more than ready to fall silent and before we had travelled more than  a mile or so each of  the youngsters would be asleep - but  I guarantee you, with smiles all around.

Memories like those are precious  but each Christmas as my son was growing up, although so very different, gave me so many precious, irreplaceable memories to add to that store  that they sustain me even today. Each time I hear Jimmy Dean's  'Blue Christmas',  I think of my  little boy and how very much I loved him and what a precious gift those years as he was growing up truly were. That song has very special meaning to both of us and has always been very much a part of our Christmas.

Now he is a Daddy himself and like all of us busy keeping up with living, but to me he will always be that little boy who so loved to sit in the dark watching the star twinkle on the top of the tree covered in lights as he watched all his favourite Christmas TV programs. The same ones every year. Each one had to be seen no matter how many times he had watched them in other years, and always that Jimmy Dean Christmas Card album played throughout the season.

Today I think, so often with regret, of the times in later years as life became more difficult and  more demanding, when perhaps the store of memories should have had more replenishment than time and circumstance allowed. In this modern world  with all its demands on our time, unfortunately so many of us sometimes forget to prioritize.

My Son

My hands were busy through the day,
I didn't have much time to play
The little games you asked me to.
I didn't have much time for you...

I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook,
But when you'd bring your picture book
And ask me, please to share your fun,
Too often I'd say, " A little later Son."

I'd tuck you in all safe at night,
And hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tiptoe softly to the door.
I wish I'd stayed a minute more...

For life is short, and years rush past,
A little boy grows up so fast.
No longer is he at your side
His precious secrets to confide.

The picture books are put away,
There are no children's games to play,
No good night kiss, no prayers to hear
That all belongs to yesteryear...

My hands once busy, now lie still
The days are long and hard to fill,
I wish I might go back  and do
The little things you asked me to.

I love you Son.

Memories. What priceless gifts.  Yes indeed, children do need Happy Christmas Memories. But the  title of the introductory poem for this page is not quite accurate. It most assuredly isn't only children who need them.

Please do take time to cherish the moments.  And your children.  Not only at this holiday season, but all year long. Childhood is so fleeting. Almost before you realize it they are grown. The moments go by so quickly and once gone, they are gone forever.

I truly hope you enjoy your visit as you wander through my Christmas pages and thank you for dropping by. Have a wonderfully Happy Christmas, and may the New Year and New Millennium bring Happiness and Good Fortune to you and all those whom you love.
 
 
 

Merry Christmas



 

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Updated  December 2 2000